It Started Out With A Kiss, How Did It End Up Like This?

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"Morning Cigarette"

I think that I might love you,

But I'm afraid to lie.

I don't want this to fall apart,

I don't want to hurt or cry.

As these silver swirls as smoke,

Dance about then disinigrate;

I think about old memories,

Inhaling thoughts I wish would die.

Pass me the cup,

I'll drink the poison of choice.

Just don't leave me all alone.

The tears pour out from behind my eyes.

The sense of self feeling has died.

It hurts me when you are not here.

I long for you when you're not here.

When will I be OK?

I do not know,

Probably when this love no more can grow.

Sorry if it seems sorta retarded! I didn't write it all in one sitting, it took some time, so yeah, that's probably the explaination if it don't really make sense. But anyway, I wrote that one to my current boyfriend. It pretty much says that I think I love him, but I'm afraid to, because of my past relationships, and I'm scared to. I do my best thinking when I'm all alone, smoking a cigarette.

Please tell me what you think!